Once Gone...

How do you earn back something that by definition, is only worth anything if you dont lose it? Something that takes a lifetime to build, but can be ripped away forever in the blink of an eye. Something that we need, we thrive on, something that we base our selves, our relationships and our entire lives on. Something rare and strong, yet fleeting and fragile. Its the reason we do what we do and it dictates who we do it with. Its existence is the link that unites friends, and its failure creates foes. Trust. It's what makes the world go round.

But what makes it so truly horrible and valuable simultaneously is its fragility. You can spend forever building it up, and im speaking from experience here, and it seems as if its unbreakable. Yet the slightest false move, a cruel action here, a mistake there, a lie anywhere and the trust you shared is lying shattered on the floor in a million pieces.

Its fickle. Thats my two word summary. If i had to extend by summary to four words, "Its fickle and priceless". The fact that it can be destroyed so easily is what makes it so valuable, and makes it so vital that we protect it. But maybe the only thing worse than the delicate fragility of trust is the fact that once its broken, its gone for good. No matter what you do, things will never be how they were. Thats something I've learned. No matter how much you regret the past, no matter how much you try to make amends, no matter how much you try to prove your worth and re-build your trust, no matter how much time elapses, no matter how truly ashamed and sorry you are, it will never be the same. And you have to sit there, as the person who once shared everything with you, the person you still care about more than anyone else in the world, tells you that you can't be trusted. And it hurts. But you deserve it. Because thats trust. Its fickle. Its priceless.